#0022

Slipping through
Careless hands
Watching you
As it stands
Eyes that see,
But you don't;
Hiding me,
So you won't.
Knowing love
Through your voice
Leaving me
With no choice.
I stand up
You'll see me
Waving arms
Set me free.
Turning from
Faceless dreams
Nothing is
As it seems.
You're not here
I'm not there
Winter chills;
Not a care.
Sit up in
Lonely Bed
Pounding heart
Aching head.
Silent wish;
Then to rest
Free from cares,
Feeling blessed.

#0021

I pull out the memories sometimes
To see if they've healed yet;
The product of time and distance
Or is there still regret?
I lay them out before me
Searching through the facts
Testing my recollections
I check how my heart reacts.
It may be I find, pleasantly,
There are things I have let go
And scars that I thought permanent
Evidence of healing show.
Unwanted memories creep in
When I lie awake at night
It seems they dare not stir
Until I have turned out the light.
Do I wish I had no images
Of the times which now are past?
No, for all the bad ones are far outweighed
By the good that I'm making last.

#0020

I push the rock out of anger; a careless nudge,

I lash out at my own will; seeing red.

With disbelief I see the massive stone begin to budge.

Open mouthed, my heart feels sudden pangs of dread.

Then the rock is rolling;

Decisions made

Too much said

The cat let out

of the bag.

Too late to take it back.

Accumulating speed.

Heart in my mouth.

Eyes wide.

Panicked.

A silent prayer no harm will come.

Secretly dreading the worst.

...that it hurts someone.

Some poor well meaning soul

who underestimated

The destructive influence of my rage;

Who bravely ventured outdoors

as all of the others sit

in their huts

shivering

cowering...

Hoping

my rolling wrath

is not

coming

straight

...for them.

Rediscovered 005

I love you because you possess a knack
So rare and yet so ill-appraised.
That skill I admire doth make thought transpire
To reflect love in all manner of ways.

You build a great bridge between the words that are said,
Thoughts and feelings that enter your mind;
And when it is crossed no sweetness is squandered
But converted to deeds that are kind.

And at the evening as I am raised to new heights,
That grant me a different view,
You will tell me you love me,and I will say:
"By your actions, I always knew."

#0019

I'm seeking after celebrity-
If she can get it, why not me?
I'd be grateful for the extra cash
Merely for pictures of me out on the lash.

I've heard them say that money is tight
So why succumb to a painful fight?
Better to be on the dole- Good idea!
I'll have an income throughtout the year!

I might try philosophy, which will link
With my ability to think...
Then I can sit there every day
And maybe someone will give me pay!

I wonder if I could get rich
By lying, motionless in a ditch,
Perhaps I'd be seen as a jerk
Who doesn't recognise the value of work?

Well, nevermind, they'd all be green
Green with jealousy, I mean!
Education? No point! You won't get work!
Just sit at home, lie back and shirk!

Some poor sucker on a nine til five
Will keep the whole of Britain alive!
Just remember the motto: take, take, take!
Oh what a society that would make!

#0018

My changing heart can ne'er decide!

Chameleon stripes suit the wearer!

I pin it to you and inside

All other teams are set aside;

I become your standard bearer.

What colour will I choose to stay,

When I am fixed as I will be?

It must be something to relay

The inner voices I obey

And who I am eternally.

Cinquain 003

Addict

I give myself

My Proper Name to hold

Close to my chest; don't show your cards.

Desp'rate

Clawing; reach to find a way out

Choking back my self doubt

Can't fail... break free

Escape.

Cinquain 002 (Garland)

White day.

Eyes shining bright.

Butterflies fluttering

Within a proud and grateful heart;

Yours; Mine.

Dressing...

A nervous smile

And we're ready to go

Into the car; quick camera flash

Set off.

Waiting

Greeting good friends

Laughter hiding the nerves

A hush falling over the church

"She's here."

Music

Make eye contact

You've never looked better

We smile shyly at each other

Take hands.

Promise

Finally here

Glowing; young and in love

We're setting out on a journey

I'm yours.

White day.

A nervous smile

Laughter hiding the nerves

We smile shyly at each other

I'm yours.

#0017

I didn't watch you walk away

Or ask you to come back to me

Perhaps I should have said, "please stay,

Until this dark night turns to day."

But I just hoped that you would see,

To disregard my angry cry

Enveloping and comforting;

Resistance wears down by and by,

and I'd lie in your arms and sigh

Grateful for care and supporting.

But, alas, too soon you were gone,

Instead of musing on the start

I'm wondering how life goes on,

Leaving me here to think thereon

Cursing the air; and all my heart.

#0016

My mother always quoted

Since before I could talk,

The poetry of Robert Frost

Whenever she went on a walk.

She talked about a yellow wood

And a choice between each path,

As we grew older we groaned aloud;

The consistancy made us laugh.

Yet, can it be that through passing years

I've found that his words somehow

Have come to resound within my soul,

Bearing meaning for me now?

In life I've seen roads not taken,

And I've closed so many doors,

But I do not regret the journey,

If, one day, the door I reach... is yours.

Rediscovered 004

I feel like I should write something

But I can’t find a rhyme.

I’m not able to concentrate,

I think about you all the time.

Sitting here, breathing in

The memories of you...

Maybe I should move on?

Yet, I don’t know what to do.

I know what lovers mean now

When someone goes away,

And they describe their whole world

As being shades of grey.

It’s not even black and white

Like some old-romantic scene,

I’m not Marilyn or Audrey,

Too young, just seventeen.

My world has been plunged

Into a sea of night

Because, without you,

None of this feels right.

I want to shout it to the world

That you’re my only one,

And I would have done just that-

But now... you are gone.

I felt as if you knew me better,

Than anyone ever had,

You completed me and that is why,

My world now feels so sad.

My face is a mask of joy

When all I feel is pain,

Why did you leave me?

Will I ever love again?

Did I love you in the first place?

Am I just too young to know?

Was I just weak and foolish?

Will this feeling fade as I grow?

So many questions,

Encircling my mind,

But all of the answers

Seem to have been left behind.

Love stories run through my head,

“You had me from hello,”

“Frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn.”

And “I’ll never let go.”

#0015

I wish that I could fashion words the way you do

You use them with so much skill and so precisely

I feel sometimes that I have forgotten how to nicely

Phrase anything at all.

Cinquain 001

Sadness...

Over my heart,

The cold spreads; makes me numb,

And finally fades as the mem'ry dies...

Buried

Somewhere deep in my tortured soul,

Caged like a mockingbird,

Never to sing,

Broken.