#0006

Wanting to be somebody
Wanting to succeed
Wanting to be silent
Wanting to scream
Wanting to have faith enough
Wanting to stand out
Wanting to be understood
Wanting to blend in
Wanting to remember
Wanting to forget
Wanting to experience
Wanting to share my mind
Wanting to travel
Wanting to smile
Wanting to have some space
Wanting to be admired
Wanting to create
Wanting to give
Wanting to feign confidence
Wanting to become.

Then, suddenly
Wanting nothing more than to call you mine;
Wanting it forever.

#0005

Is that it, in the distance?

I think I hear the roar,

It sounds like time is ticking by

much faster than before.

I'm looking at my watch to check

if it is really true

but constantly it tells me

that it is quarter to.

I've got fifteen minutes wait

before I join the train..

Is that it, in the distance?

I look once then look again.

I tap my foot impatiently,

for adventures to begin,

I can see it charging forwards now

and a sudden doubt creeps in.

Am I ready for this journey

that could take me very far

away from the place i know

is it time to raise the bar?

I turn and look into the mist

where my train will head

wondering if the way brings joy

or harder times, and dread.

Will I ever know what I may find

when I climb aboard?

The only way to find out

is for fears to be ignored.

Now, it is fast approaching

and my heart still skips a beat

But I know where I am going;

I will not accept defeat.

I imagine in the future

they will ask how I got here-

and answering I'll tell them

it was faith in place of fear.

#0004

I have heard it said of men

That they lie time and time again;

Cannot be relied on for the truth,

But hate correction and reproof.

A man is made of many faults,

Himself he oftentimes exalts,

Yet I can say of some I know

there is some distance left to go;

But they have achieved such steady starts,

With goodness written on their hearts;

My friends will see me through the years

being there to wipe my tears.

For, men can be both kind and wise,

my problems they compartmentalise,

I find that they, too, have need of me;

So we are friends, reciprocally.

Rediscovered 002

Every time you’re with me

I know it’s the deepest thrill

To hold you close and know you need me

And after time, you’ll need me still.

I used to crave excitement

From someone who didn’t care

Someone with independence,

and couldn’t guarantee he’d be there.

I look into your eyes and I see

How deeply you care, how much you need me,

I know that I’m your world

And there’s nothing for you without me.

Rediscovered 001

Does he know I know he knows I lie

When I’m staring straight at him,

And he says the line,

Those three damn words,

And I say them back,

Without a pause?

I know he knows I know he lies;

When he’s questioning me with his eyes

And he sees the truth

But just can’t face it

So he turns away

And says, “I know.”

#0003

The dearest love that I have ever known,

Came to me as sure as a shooting star.

I gazed along the pathway it had flown,

With longing that it would not stray too far.

Though starlight may be lost into the dark,

Our true eternal star shall never fade,

But guide; direct us as we make our mark,

And look back on the lives that we have made.

What God hath joined; let no man seperate-

Our lives entwined; a husband and a wife,

When this day ends; I'll meet you at the gate,

Walking in His path- we found joy in life.

O, dearest love that I have ever known,

Journey with me, until the day is flown.

#0002 part II

You offer me your love,

To be with me forever,

You say you'll give me everything,

We'll always be together.

You say your love is enduring,

you'll never let me go,

So, why, when I ask for two seconds of time

is the answer always, "No"?

#0002 part I

There are so many things I want to say,

I wish that I could help you on your way.

I've cried a tear or two for you and now I find,

That no matter what, you're always on my mind.

Must letting go always bring such pain and grief?

From this I try to find relief

but you had such an impact on my life

and maybe it was not perfect; there was strife,

I got frustrated at you, and you at me,

And there were many times we wanted to be free.

The cords were finally cut.

and all ties severed, but...

There is this one that I can not let go,

Though I have told you that it isn't so.

I know that you and I weren't meant to be,

not soul-mates, though we shared some history.

The love we knew burned hot and it burned fast,

We should have reigned it in; it could not last...

There was no guard to keep us from the pain

when after the fires came the bitter rain.

Perhaps we could have kept each other warm;

throughout the heat and through the bitter storm?

But listen to me; "wish", "maybe", "perhaps"...

These 'what-if' phrases keep me in their traps.

Sonnet 001

To be a woman is a blessed thing,

We hold a power to influence all,

Though mother eve received a dreadful sting,

her gift; pandora's box, the greeks recall.

We gossip and we worry all the time,

seeking the approval and the praise;

yet our real gift is seeing the sublime,

and helping others find the safest ways.

She's not there now, not yet fully furnished,

In things she desires yet most to be,

She has confidence she will be burnished,

And senses, somehow, her divinity.

To be a woman; o, what glad employ!,

sweetness and laughter; love and endless joy.